post exam playing

wow, i haven't updated since exams have finished simply because every day is jam packed with farewells, dinners, parties and just all in all being plain busy organising winter holidays.
yes i said WINTER holidays. What an uncanny feel to that word because at the end of the year, i am used to SUMMER holidays, basking in the sunshine of Sydney beaches (or maybe GC beaches), and eating watermelon or something...chilling at biccentenial.. yeah u get it : )

its been really sad saying bye to everyone... 4 months have gone by so quickly. although I'm glad at times like these that i do homestay and not seminar house because they have to say bye to a new person everyday... until the place just empties out. its been such a great experience meeting all these awesome people from all over the world and it really has a strange dreamlike quality about it because u feel like you've known these ppl all you life.

well i'm done packin now, cleaned up my mess, and i'm ready to roll after the laundry dries. Its been really cold these last 2 days around 6-7 degrees CELSIUS. annnd i'm literally freezing my NOSE and ears off. but my canadian friends and american friends from michigan are like "well it is a little chilly." UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE YEAR MUCH?
maybe because this is as cold as it gets in sydney, but the WORST is yet to come. i am shivering thinking about korea.

i'm really looking forward to moving out. although i do suppose i will miss the dog here.. gen chan. he is currently resting his huge head on my foot. its keeping me nice and warm. but i will not miss his stinkiness and his hair shedding all over my clothes.

will update you guys on where i am soon!!! i'm REALLY EXCITED ABOUT TOKYO. leaving in 3 days!

He knows and understands

O Lord, you have searched me
and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

Psalm 139: 1-2

munchlings on nourishing food, receiving spiritual food

thank you guys for your prayers! I got through all 3 tests fine today and it is all because of God's blessing upon my life. I am currently munching on some dutch gingerbread cookies that rorence gave me : ) when you receive something really lovely, you start to consider how awesome generosity is , and how great it is when its bestowed upon you. i think rorence is a great example of someone with a really generous heart (NOT just about cookies of course hahaha) so i have a lot to learn from the ppl around me.

today, my devotional was on 2 corinthians 9. This is something I have been praying about: generosity. How much should i give while i'm on exchange? constant negative cash outflow doesn't help in growing generosity. I always have to remind myself that I can never give more than God gives me ... ( although is that how i'm supposed to think about it ? hahah sounds like i'm comforting myself that i'm always at an advantage). buuut yeh, compared to the gift that God has freely given to me through JEsus, the gift of Salvation, nothing i ever give can compare.

I just want to be someone who joyfully gives, EVEN while im povo and EVEN while i'm on exchange because that means in ALL situations, not just when i'm rich, I will be combatting the little demon called greed within human nature.

2 corinthians 9
Generosity Encouraged

6 Remember this: Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. 7 Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. 8 And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. 9 As it is written:
“They have freely scattered their gifts to the poor;
their righteousness endures forever.”[a]

Pray that I will generously and joyfully give, EVEN TO MY DISADVANTAGE because our mission in this world is to love LOVE and let God's light and grace be displayed through our actions.
my friend's actions today spoke louder than any words.. even though it was something small, it was enough to influence and affect me, inspiring a desire to better myself as well, and strive to be more Christ-like everyday.

aspiring to...~

My FOCUS will be on:

33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.(Matthew 6:33)


just to add something more, i just received a call from the loverly da-hee kim who is safe and sound in kyushu as we speak <3 God again shows us that he has our utmost welfare in mind and her host family is not only awesome but has an elevator in the house because they own a ryokan.. AMAZING MUCH? God wants us to have great experiences and he created us to live fully , the way we were created to live in Him. so we both learnt today that we should trust and not be of little faith and worry our hearts out about something we have no control over anyway. Trust & let go of the steering wheel.. let God drive and remember the above passage : )

can almost TASTE the end

its really sad and stressful that the semester is going to come to a close

i still have another 7 assessments left but i shall blog because i have not updated.
i have 3 exams tomoro, so that leaves 4 to study for over the weekend..

tomorrow, i have sakubun test, speaking test then final quiz for gender & sexuality.. i think i've had enough of reading about lesbians for now.. T__T
the other day in class the teacher passed around lesbian erotica for our perusal . like huh? what? what am i supposed to think? .. i still dont know at this point.

i've already written out my sakubun and my script for speaking...now to memorise... and er.. i've studied 1/4 of the material for tomoro's test.. i hope i'll b okay...

I really do need your prayers guys! and thanks for sending me emails guys : ) its so nice to have some sort of contact bak with ya'll in australia. miss you all a lot even if we hafn't talked for a long time

to be honest, i'm ready to come back because everyones leaving to go back home which makes me wanna go home too.. buuuuut i'm not homesick yet.

next semester is going to be pretty tough because 'im lookin for my own apartment and i'll haf to take care of most things myself... i'm sorta excited and scared! (btw, i still hafn't found an apartment yet..) so please pray that God will provide a place for me to stay.. preferably closer to osaka city because i work and go to church there

God really performed a miracle for me today! I left the house 20 minutes later than I intended because of my inability to read the time... and as I got on the bus, I was hating on everyone who was slowly getting on... and i was annoyed the bus driver didn't accelerate faster.. all this stupid stuff. HAHAH. buut God was like, why are you worrying? what is the POINT of you worrying and having all these angry feelings? well, i said, because i spent y'day STUDYING for the test, so i dont wanna MISS it. buuut as soon as I gave over my worries to God, and i said a really quick prayer.. "Lord please make straight paths for me" the lights were literally green the WHOLE WAY. all the red ones turned green as our bus approached.
Praise GOD!!! in the situation it is hard to be patient, and faithful and trusting. but when you do, God will be like "behold!" and u will be like " oh . wow. " and feel very silly for worrying.
:)
so that's my update for today~ i shall soldier on !

final 16 days of semester 1.

i'm typing 7 mins b4 i haf to leave and i hafn't brushed my teeth yet. ew.
HAHAHHA
sorry i hafnt' been updating but its the last 2 weeks and i've got close to 10 different assessments ranging from small to big... ITS HECTIC!! please pray for me ! and another prayer point is that i want to find an apartment to live in..its just more convenient for me... thank you guys..!! another semester and i'm HOME!!

will update soon!